The Sick Reality

Have you ever felt like you wanted to re-do something in the past?
Well I do.
And I want it badly.

At first, it was okay for me. I took it lightly.
I just let him slip away.
And he was out of mylife.
Doubts filled my mind but I was able to forget him.

Not until last month.
April 17, 2008.
It was a usual boring day for me.
I was infront of the monitor chatting with some old friends in YM.
An IM buzzed.
I opened it.
It had his name on it.

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HIM: BUZZ!
ME: Hey.
HIM: Musta kna
ME: I'm fine. Kaw?
HIM: Ok din. Can I have ur frendster?
ME: Huh?

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I thought he knew it was me.
Then it struck me.
If he knew, hindi xa magbu-buzz in the first place.
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ME: You know me.
HIM: Ur name's nt rgstered hir
HIM: Sorry
HIM: Wats ur name in frendster?
ME:
ME: You dnt wana know.
HIM: Pls
ME: *sighes* It's Yam.

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He answered after a couple of minutes.
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HIM: Yam?
HIM: Sa RTR ka nag-sku-skul
ME: Yea.
ME: It's me.
HIM: I see
HIM: Ok

Him signed out.

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Whoa. Okay thank you for that.
And I was beggining to forget him.
This isn't the only time na nagkachat kami anonymously.
I don't know if fate is playing on us or is it just me.

And now as I grasp unto my cellphone, I found out his number was still there.
Nakalimutan kuh atang i-erase.
I remembered his last words were.
"I want to forget you. You don't know kung how much pain you've caused. Goodbye Yam."

Was I cruel to him?
Did I do something really bad enoguh for him to leave me?
I wish destiny could just stop bringing us together.

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HIM
0928*******

DELETE NUMBER?
-- YES.

DELETE HIM?
-- CANCEL
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Grr. I'm so confused.
Yam.