Saturday, December 29, 2007

My Typical Day

A glimpse of what my ordinary day looked like.

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Surprisingly, I think I’ll have a very long post ngaun. Peace tayo dun sa mga tinatamad bumasa.

As usual, ngayong morning, late na uli ako gumising. Naka ugali.an na yata kapag holidays. Kasi pag may pasok naman, kuh, God save me, I barely sleep. It’s not easy being a nurse. Mahirap yata pagsabayin ang SCHOOL at FUN. Kaya, baka pag pasukan uli, mag-aappear.disappear ako sa grupong ito.

So anyway, paggising ko, sympre I juz drank my milk (sosyal ang lola mo, hanggang ngayon may milk pa rin at si maam pa ang nagtitimpla. Nyaha.) and skipped breakfast. Nkaugali.an na yata ng mga alaga ko sa tiyan ang di ko pagkain ng agahan. Haha.

Today, instead of the usual gising-tulog-kain-internet-tulog, may twist ang day ko. Kasi, inutusan akong bumili ng vinegar for lola’s fried lumpia. No choice ako, walang tao sa bahay, kmai lang ni lola kaya ayun, dali-dali akong pumunta sa tindahan.

ME: Manang, pa-buy po ako ng vinegar.
TINDERA: Sandali lang neng, naubusan ako ditto e. Kukuha lang ako sa bahay.

Naman, kung kelan may bibili yun lang kukuha. Habang nabagot ako sa paghintay, nagring and cp ko. Chineck ko yun and what the heck, nagtext si CRUSH!

OMG. After many years, nagparamdam ang loko!

CRUSH: Ei sup? Musta?
ME: Ahm fyn. Kaw? =)
CRUSH: ok lng, wud?

DOUBLE OMG. Tinatanong niya ako kung anong ginagawa ko. Anu kaya magandang plusot??

ME: Im wid my frends havin a gr8 tym hir at Greenwich. Kw? =)
CRUSH: ahh, e2 cnamahan fren q
ME: wer?

At long last, bumalik na si manang tindera, dala ang isang bote ng vinegar. Nung nagbabayad na ako, biglang may tumapik sa shoulders ko.

Uyy!

Pagtingin ko, sh*t! Yung crush ko!

CRUSH: Greenwich pla ha!

God, wish ko lang, nilamon na ako ng lupa that time! I was caught LYING, caught in my POKEMON pambahay tshirt and puruntong shorts!

Badtrip talaga. Nahuli ako ni CRUSH in my least fave time.

Curses for letting me buy vinegar.
Pwede naman kasing kainin ang lumpia w/o the sauce diba?
Hay na lang.

Sunday, October 28, 2007

Quotes straight from my cellphone!

Technology.
They give me the best of evrythin.
And I'm lovin evry minute of my beybeh.
It's not what you think it is, this so called 'beybeh' is none other than my cellphone!
Well, let me share to you some of my favorite stored messages in my inbox. ;p

This one was the oldest. It came from *rujay a.k.a. ate love*

thngs money cant buy:
+ gettin 2 a clas late & realizing da prof isn't der yet
+ lying on da grass & staring at da sky
+ a perfectly delivered punclyn
+ a hartfelt lafter
+ dancing n da rain
+ waking up early n da mornin and findin out dat skul has bin canceled
+ passin a test u wer ur goin 2 fail
+ watchin da sunrise & sunset
+ singin n da shower
+ m8ng som1 lyk u

Happiness isnt bout money. 8s every lil thing around u! Luv and appreciate!

Here is another one from *my bro*. ;p

Tru meanin of LOVE:

F 8s bcoz of his eyes or body, 8s NOT love. 8s LUST.
F 8s bcoz of his intelligence or insyt about life, 8s NOT love. 8s ADMIRATION.
F 8s bcoz he cries everytym u try 2 leave, 8s NOT love. 8s PITY.
F 8s he makes u 4get 2 study & slip 8s NOT love. 8s INFATUATION.

LOVE is wen u do not know y u sim 2 b attracted 2 a person. Coz love has 8s reason.
And dat reason is unknown. xD


This one is from my classmate *riza*. Got to keep this one.

Nurses' defintion of LOVE:

-- Luv s a disease of man's anatomy, comunicable wid no etiology, once frustrated results 2 allergy.
-- Congenital symptoms reveal ANOREXIA; lack of appetite may lead to INSOMNIA, f u wont b careful may lead to COMA, n 8s malignancy, luv wil lead to no treatment, nor can we dscover any mdication, but in love's addiction, a KISS is an emollient & a tranquilizerto heal disappointments. ;p

Stil from *riza*

I knw y pipol laugh...
Dey laugh bcoz 8 hurts so much..

And its da only thing dat wil make it stop hurting. -- ROBERT HEINLEIN

This one is from *momi melai*

Sumtyms..
ul fynd sum1 u can share secrets wid. Dey r called BESTFRIENDS.
ul fynd sum1 u share swit and intim8 moments. Dey r called SOULMATES.
ul find sum1 hu cn myk u laf & cheer u up. Dey r called ENTERTAINERS.
ul fynd sum1 hu knocks u off ur feet. Dey r called CRUSHES.
ul fynd sum1 hu annoys u & teases u but u ac2aly dont get mad. Dey r called SPECIAL.

& sumtyms ul find out dat dey r ONE and THE SAME.

This one is from another classmate of mine. *porferia*

NURSING diagnosis ng mga inluv:

miss mo= alteration n comfort; pain @ da chest are related 2 missing sum1
ksma mo xa= risk 4 dehydration related 2 our perspiration
snagot kna= increased cardiac output related 2 happiness
pg ng away kau= slip pattern disturbance related 2 luv quarells
pg nag break= imbalanced nutrition less dan body requirements related 2 NPO 4 1 mo. secondary 2 breakup.

Here are from *christian*

"most of wats bein said about me by other people doesnt really say about WHO I AM, it tells more about WHO THEY ARE"


"pretendin2 b frends wid da 1 u luv is lyk breathin underwater. u cant hold it too long.
f u do, u wont make it out alive"

I have lots more but I'l share it to you some other days. ;p

Thursday, October 25, 2007

Predicament of an unwanted child

“Mama, where are we going?” six-year-old Sophie asked. In her arms was her favorite doll, which she named Dorothy. That was the last gift her father had given her before he died. And to her, it was very special. She has the same short golden curls and ocean blue eyes paired with long thick lashes just like his father. She loved his father so much.

“You don’t need to know. Just remember to be at your best behavior. And I mean it.” Mrs. Herbert looked at her child sternly. “I’ll be right back.” With that, she got out of the car.

Little Sophie was in the van with her nanny, Ms. Dela cour. The child looked at her caretaker with deep innocent eyes and asked, “Why does Mama seems to be mad at me at all times, Nanny? Did I do anything wrong?”

The concierge can’t help but feel pitiful to her acquitted girl. “Nothing, my dear. Let’s just try to understand your Mama. Maybe she’s tired.”

Mrs. Herbert came back to the car. She glanced through the vehicle’s window. “C’mon. Remember, best behavior.”

With that, Sophie, her mother and Ms. Dela Cour proceeded to the building. Inside, there seems to be a celebration. The small place is full of people. It was nicely decorated with magnificent lanterns that hung over the ceilings. A banquet was placed in the center of the room.

“Take care of her.” By the way Ms. Herbert said that was she meant it badly. The nanny clasped her hand to the child’s. “Stay right beside me. We don’t want any bad thing to happen won’t we?” The child nodded as a sign of confirmation.

Thirty minutes passed by and more people came. Sophie played with the other six-year old children.

A mean kid suddenly grabbed Sophie’s doll. “Hey, that’s mine!” she exclaimed. The kid just laughed. “It’s mine now. “ With that, the kid tossed the doll and stepped on it. “Give it back!” Sophie was now hysterical. It was his dad’s last gift to her before he died. It meant everything to her.

She grabbed for the kid’s hair and started pulling it. “My hair! Ouch! It hurts! Daddy!” the cruel toddler screamed. Soon, all the people were staring at the small fuss. A forty year old man emerges out of the crowd. Then Sophie’s mother followed. “What is all this about?” the man asked. The kid ran to his father’s arms and faked to cry. “It was her fault Daddy. She started grabbing my locks for no reason. She’s crazy!”

All eyes seemed to be glued on Sophie. “No, it’s not true. She began with-“ Her mother did not let her finish. “Apologize, Sophie.” She looked at the child intently. Sophie knows that look. Her mom’s mad. Real mad.

Sophie took a deep breath. “I’m sorry.”

“You should be.” the kid said sarcastically.

Mrs. Herbert turned to the man and asked for forgiveness. “I’m sorry, Sir. This would not happen again.”

“You better watch your child, Ms. Herbert. Or I’ll fire you if you mess with my daughter again. C’mon, honeykins. I’ll treat you to an ice cream.” “Really? Thank you, Daddy!” the kid said victoriously.

The crowd began to disperse. In no time, everything was back to normal. But not to Sophie, it wasn’t.

“Bring her to the car now Ms. Dela Cour.” Ms. Herbert commanded. The nanny obeyed and brought the child outside. Sophie picked her wrecked toy on the way and sobbed.

“Mama is going to punish me again. It will hurt a lot, Nanny”, the child continued to weep. “Nanny’s here. Don’t worry.” she assured the toddler.

When Ms. Herbert came to the car, she turned the key to ignition and drove it home quickly.

When they reached inside the house, Sophie kept grasping for her caretaker’s dress. She won’t let go no matter what.

“You can go now, Ms. Dela Cour. Leave us and Sophie alone.” Ms. Herbert directed.

“Don’t do anything painful to the child again, Ma’am. I’m begging you.”

“She’s my child and I can do anything to her. Now go!” Without any hesitation, she grabbed the child harshly. Ms. Dela Cour had no choice and left the room.

“What did I tell you before the party Sophie?” Her voice sounded calm yet Sophie knows that her mom is furious with her.

“B-be at my best behavior.” Sophie was frightened of what is going to happen next.

“But what did you do?” Ms. Herbert continued to ask. “You ruined everything. You were stubborn! Always stubborn!” she raised her voice at her.

“But she is trying to ruin Papa’s gift for me, Mama.”

“Did I tell you to speak, huh?” She slapped the child.

“You know what? It was your fault why your father died! You were so obstinate! At your 6th year party, I just wanted a simple gathering, but no, you want to go swimming! You told your father to have a beach party! And then what? You swam across the sea and you started to drown. Your father came to rescue you! He died saving you just because you were so persistent from the very start! It would not have happened if you didn’t ask for a beach party! Your dad should still be alive by then!”

She slapped the child again. And again. And again.

“It was your entire fault. Your fault!” Sophie’s mom was screaming it all over again.

Sophie shrieked for the pain. The fact that her mom hated her all the time since the accident happened was more painful than the blows her mother was giving her. She wailed harder. Her mom hates her. It hurts all so much.

Ms. Dela Cour tried to stop the dispute. It was enough for the little girl. “Stop it! Stop it Ms. Herbert! You’re harming the child. It’s causing her too much damage!”

Sophie was at last freed from her mother’s clutches. Tears were streaming at her tiny cheeks. “Mama hates me. She doesn’t like me at all.”

“Hush, dear child. Go on to your room.” Ms. Dela Cour said sympathetically.

“I’m out of here. I don’t want to see that child’s face right now.” Ms. Herbert suddenly said. She stood up and left the room. Sophie followed her mother.

“No, Mama. Don’t leave me!”

“Sophie!” called Ms. Dela Cour. But the child didn’t budge and continued going after her mother.

“Stop following me!” Ms. Herbert screamed. They were outside the house now.

“No. Mama, tell me that you love me.” Sophie pleaded.

“Go back inside the house!”

Ms. Herbert crossed the street to her parked car. She needed a time alone. She can’t take the pressure. She heaved a heavy breath.

Unexpectedly, a car screeched into the corner. There was a shriek of pain before a sound of crashing happened. Ms. Herbert turned around to see Sophie, her child, lying lifeless at the street. Blood was all over her petite body.

“No... No, please no!” She hurried to her daughter’s motionless body. She was not breathing. She was dead.

A few seconds passed and Ms. Dela Cour got outside the house to find out what happened. The scene of Sophie resting on the road with Ms. Herbert sobbing beside greeted her sight. She was surprised and approached them wondering what happened.

“She followed me. Even after I told her to go back. How could you be so stubborn Sophie?” Ms. Herbert continued weeping.

“I never want to lose you. I’m sorry. I’m so sorry Sophie. Mama always loved you. She just never showed it to you. Mama had been so bad. She kept blaming you for your Papa’s death. I’m sorry Sophie.”

Ms. Dela Cour stood there too stunned to move. “Poor child. She just wanted her mother’s love.”

-END-

Whispers from the Past

This one I made out of boredom.

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Our professor in mathematics, Mr. Prime, was discussing about one-sided limit when the school bell rang. It signaled the end of the class and the day as well. Mr. Prime gave us loads of assignments to answer at home. Great. More homework. I heaved a sigh. Arithmetic isn’t one of my favorite subjects, and I have no talent whatsoever in finding out what the value of x in the expression (x+y)=c.

I tucked my calculus book in my new pink shoulder bag, then went outside and proceeded to the loud hallways. Somehow, it felt weird being all alone. It’s been two weeks after it happened. The memories are still fresh. Maybe it’s just because a bit unusual for my side. A girl, who looked familiar, but I wasn’t able to remember her name waved at me. I smiled back at her.

The sky was dark, and the air was humid. The weather seams to be overcast when I’ve gotten out of the building. This looks bad. I haven’t been able to bring my umbrella today!

I jogged towards the school’s main gate to wait for my sundo, Manong Lucas, to pick me up. I wonder why he’s late today. It’s kinda odd why he is still not here.

I made my way through the jam-packed students. Seems like everyone forgot to bring their umbrellas.

When a raindrop fell from the sky, the small waiting area became more crowded. Minutes later, raindrops started falling.

My cell phone rang. I was told that Mang Lucas had a flat on his way and that it would take time before he would come and get me. More good news. Students would come and go but still, the zone remained congested.

Thunder boomed upon the sky. It made the fine hairs at the back of my neck tingled. A careless guy, bumped unto me. I lost my balance, but then, strong masculine hands supported me. I turned around to see his angelic face inches before mine. His expressive eyes stared intently on me. I glanced away. He still loves me-no doubt about it. “Ugh, thanks” was the only words I can utter that time.

I really didn’t notice his presence there. “No, prob. You forgot your umbrella again?” he smiled showing his dimples on both cheeks. I giggled. “Yeah”. He always makes me laugh. I missed that about him. “I would gladly share mine with you” he said I looked at him keenly. He sounds so serious. He still hasn’t changed. The same Ian I have loved before. But things change. Things you don’t even expect to happen. And the thing is, you have to accept it and move on.

A bolt of lightning followed by a clasp of thunder roared on the sky. The rain poured down heavily now. The deafening waiting area now stood serene. A few students were only left.

“I could take you home if you want”, he insisted. I smiled. “Sure, why not? And while were there, you can tell me about this new girl you liked”. He chuckled. “Nope, I still don’t have that yet”.

With my hand on his, we walked the path to the bus stop, I sighed heavily. “How nice to freshen up my past!”

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Can't cry hard enough

I hate things like this.

I just hate it.

Why can’t someone you treasured most have to go away?

Why can’t they just stay?

I was so happy back then.

Why would this have to happen?

I know I’m not making sense at all.

I just feel like I have to let this out.

Ugh. It sucks. I’m crying again.

Those happy moments seem to disappear just like that?

I don’t want them to go.

We were so happy.

So happy.

I cried.

The night before they leave.

I just don’t want them to leave.

I woke up early, about 5 in the morning.

To bid them goodbye. Though I don’t wanna.

I cried again.

Ugh. These tears will never stop pouring.

I hugged them one last time.

One last time.

I can’t hardly see.

My tears were blinding me.

And then they left.

Just like that.

I can’t stop my tears. Everything seemed so fast.

I didn’t realize, I fell asleep after they left.

I remembered what happened.

And these damn tears came pouring again.

They were gone.

They left.

These tears will never stop.

I'm a bad girl.



I’m a bad girl.

I do things on my own.

I cut classes.

I don’t eat my veggies.

I speak what I have in mind.

I have my own law.


Others may hate me in things that I do.

The things that I say.

The way I dress, how I mix and match my outfit.

The time it takes for me to bath.

How I am a slow-eater. ( if there was a word )

How I tie or let my hair down.

Why I am so obsessed with surfin and chattin on the net.

Why I always wear my fave jewelries.

Why I hate math.

Why I love emo and punk.

And the list goes on.

But in spite all this, I refused to change.

Or let someone change me.

Because this is who I am.

Whether you love or hate me.

I’m keeping it real.

Monday, July 02, 2007

Our Life as a Fairytale




Have you ever thought you were somehow treated wickedly like Cinderella?
Or do you want to find your Prince Charming like Snow White? Have you ever thought how it feels to be flying in a magic carpet with Aladdin? Or having 3 fairy godmothers to keep you safe like Aurora in Sleeping Beauty?

Little do we know that our life is one big Fairytale.
Not the ones we watch in TV and having magic powers and all. Let's take a look in the simple things that happen in our everyday life.

I'm sure everyone has her. She may come in groups or by solo. She pretty much wanted to ruin not just yours but everybody's life. She may be popular, the richest, and the list goes on. She thinks her life is far more perfect. She is nothin but Cinderella's wicked step sisters, Snow White's wicked step mother, and the black witch of Aurora. She is practically your foe who will wreck your fairy tale.

Having an adversary, you don't have to worry.
Someone will rescue you from the malevolent behavior of your foe. They can be Aurora's fairies, Cinderella's fairy godmother and Aladdin's genie in a bottle. Or simply, your bestfriend.

And of course, it wont be a happy ending if there's no one to save you from those
enchantress, sorceress, or magician and even your step mother!
He may come in different sizes and shapes.
He may be a beast, a peasant, or a man of the wild.
He is your one and only. He is your PRINCE CHARMING. Careful though, your prince might turn out to be a frog!

Not every enemy is bad (everyone has something good in them right?), and not all godmothers can be good (provided that they may cautiously get your leading light).

You are the author of your own fairytale. Be wary in choosing your antagonist, your guardian and your prince. Your life should end with a "happily ever after."

When Love Fails...

Not all people were gifted with luck in the aspect of love. Some are exuberantly unfortunate when it comes to this matter. This portion shares some of these stories to somehow relate others with their love life. After every heartfelt story follows an uplifting advice and F.Y.I. this stories were really true.

I LUV U from the bottom of my simcard

Technology nowadays. It can do everything. And trust me when I say everything. Gone were the days that the guy plays “harana” to serenade the girl he likes. Right now, even speed dating is on and you have a new girl by the end of the night. Our next story starts here. Denise is what we like to call her. It all started on being friends with a guy on texting. Distance was the #1 problem here. Yet, it soon blossomed into love. After celebrating their monthsary, she learned that the guy secretly had a girlfriend within their place. How could she get mad if the guy wasn’t even hers in the first place? She was just after all, a mere text mate.

SOUND ADVICE:

It, after all started on texting. And we know no one (at least on my opinion) is serious on relationship regarding technology. Others too may experience it on chats, emails, ym’s and the list goes on. My point here is, being advanced may change our ways in daily life but nothing beats the traditional way of having a love one. So, quit crying over spilt milk. You may never know, the one you’ve been waiting for is just waiting for you around the corner.

Saturday, June 30, 2007

Autograph please!

ALL ABOUT ME:

Hi I'm: Katherine May Millena Sumapid
At home, I'm called: Kathy, Kat
My friends pet name for me is: Kathy, Kat2x
I am the third child in the family.
My zodiac sign is: Gemini the twins
I was born on: 21st of May, 1991
Likes: Family, Friends, GOD, music, food, books
Dislikes: thunder and lightning, backbiters

GET TO KNOW MY FAVES:
Author: John Saul, R.L. Stine, Carolyn Keene, Francine Pascal
Activity: reading, watching TV., sound trip, surfing the net, chatting
Color: green, pink, lavender
Get happy move: Smile!^_^
Outfit: just something simple and comfortable like jeans, shirt, sneakers
Sports: Basketball, Soccer
Hang out: Church, mall, or simply just at home
Subject: English(!), science
Ice cream flavor:
mango, cookies and cream
Drink:
iced tea
My pick-me-up chocolate:
Hershey's(!), Kisses
Cartoon Character:
Baby Taz
Motto:
True love waits till marriage
Greatest scares:
spiders, dogs

KEEP IT SECRET:
Me in 5 words:
moody, God-fearing, affectionate, shy, outgoing
I want to be a/an
doctor when I grow up.
The 1st item I'll save in the fire:
negative of pictures. You can never take back precious memories you have gone through.
What would I be if I were:
a piece of clothing?
jeans. They go with everything.
a dessert?
mango float. I'm really sweet.
a lipstick shade?
a hint of pink. Natural is what I like to be.
Fave time of the day:
sunset. It symbolizes the end of the day.
Inside my bag, you'll always find:
kikay kit, notebook, I.D., pen
I like reading my horoscope because:
it doesn't really come true but it can be your guide throughout the day.
I am a Gemini because:
I can be really moody! It's like I have two sides!
Gadget obsessions:
T.V.(never get tired of it), IPOD, CP, PC
Best advice I've ever received:
Listen to criticism, but never let them discourage you from doing something better.
Sweetest thing anyone did for me:
Surprise me in my birthday.

Thanks for reading my autograph!!!

Etiam Ego Amo Te

In time when promises cannot be broken,
because words of love were spoken,
Suddenly fate just gave up on us,
then questions came up for me to be asked.

But everything in this world has to end,
even a single person would'nt pretend,
Even though my love for you was true,
it really has to end for me and you.

Then time passed for a little while,
I know that my feelings won't die,
My eyes still sees you as before,
you're beauty and grace forevermore.

I won't deny I still feel the same,
even deeply I really feel the pain,
but why do I still love you?
Even if I really have to let go.

I may look like a fool to say this,
but it's you I will really miss..
Anyway I will just hide this forever,
Hoping that somehow, someday we will be together.

Don't leave


When I heard you were going to leave, I was shocked...
I trembled...
I wanted to shout...
I don't want to believe...
I wanted to hold you back...
To prevent you from doing so..
I didn't want you to go.
I did not want you to leave.. To vanish from my sight..
But I know you won't forget, even if you’re away from me..

I'll always remember and forevermore keep you,
In my heart for you are not just visions I can easily forget, Neither were you a dream.
To be real or not you are a guest, who comes and goes or a voice that blows, Oftentimes I could remember all our happy days that lingered in my mind..

I promised myself never to weep, never to cry..
Never ever let a tear drop from my eye,
when time comes I'll try to let you go, like a thief in the night.
I have to set you free like a cloud, you'll be and try to be, understand why I have done thee..

Why do people meet and only say goodbye?
And would I say go on..
Go on, don't quit..
I know you are so happy in your chosen way..
And i must say that it must be the grandest life you could ever live..

So carry on, go on with your journey even if it hurts me..
Even if it'll break our hearts if you leave..
Don't give up.. And remember..
I'm always here waiting for your return..

Behind the mask






"Who is that girl I see staring straight back at me? Why is my reflection someone I don't know.."

I loved the song from the day I have heard it play in the movie Mulan. It signifies something really deep. And it made me realize a thing too.
Do I really know myself that well?


People see me as the girl-next-door.
I'm just like your basic average teenager that loves hanging out with friends and also have problems regarding families. I drool over cute guys and idolize my favorite bands and artists.
Music plays a big part in my life. Whenever I'm happy or feeling a bit down, soundtrip is one of my options. I also love art. I want to take pictures of everything, write a story, create a poem, tries to draw, craft a scrapbook, design my room, make a handmade gifts for my friends you know the story.

I tend to get moody sometimes.
I'm a dog-lover.
I love to eat and sleep.

I treasure all my loved ones.

I love God, my ever supporting family and my awesome set of friends.
I dreamt of being a social butterfly!
I love to sing!

I wonder how it feels to be in the rain.

I'm afraid of change.

I dont want to be alone.

I want to have cool super powers like- be able to fly!

I love eating chocolates.

I hate players, back-stabbing people, and liars.

I can't leave without my cellphone and pc!
I love the colors green, pink, and lavander.

My fave motto is "True love waits till marriage"

I think Jimmy Neutron is wierd.

I love different knid of shoes!

I love to visit Japan!

I'm afraid of getting hurt.

And the list goes on.

Whew! That is just a rundown bout myself.
As a college freshie, a nursing student, I will continue to embark my journey to find more about me.


"When will my reflection show, who am I inside?"


I love my friend!


Once, I swore never to despair and cry, if I'll only ask myself why? Ask myself how nonsensical love could be, If only it'll bother and hurt one's heart truly...

I promised never to utter shrills of weep abound, And at least prevent my heart from crying out loud, But the heart eclipse inside of me of that of a tour, Emotions broke what I just swore before..

Why did I fall for the one who's far to be mine? Why did I allow myself to hope for nothing from time to time? Hurting more is that I've fallen for someone I've never expected, a friend so dear to me, whom I was never neglected...

It hurts to fall for a friend, One whom I'm attached on mutual esteem and aid, I keep on hiding my feelings and sympathy, Avoiding it as much as I can even if I'll feel dreary..

As days pass by I fall deeply for thee, Thoughts of him make me fall even profoundly, There were times when I look at him with fixed eyes wide open, But my mind will suddenly whisper to obstruct "NO! You'll just keep yourself falling!!"